Friday, April 28, 2017

i swear these blues games are going to give me heart attack someday. nerve wracking until the very last microsecond!

meanwhile, a couple of blocks down clark street, yadi and jedd managed to sneak in a pickoff to one distracted red. that was the sneakiest awesomest pickoff play ever.

go cards! let's go blues!  TeamSTL with 2 wins tonight!

Monday, April 24, 2017

wishthatyouwerehere - another writing excuse

wish that you were here. when i first attempted to write about this song, i was on vacation back home. it was hard for me to fully immerse myself in a song full of longing and missing someone when i was surrounded by loving family and friends ;). fast forward a couple of weeks and i'm back to my natural habitat -- alone and homesick. 
and yet, i still could not seem to find the right words.

so i thought of an experiment....every time i think of someone or something i miss, i will write down words...yes, words. should be simple, yeah? right.   
(see previous posts for those attempts)

i could manage a few words but it would always sound so cheesy......even when all i was writing about was that it was hot and i wish i had halo-halo. haha!

so how can someone write such sweet and thoughtful words and make them sound so sincere? and put them all together in a beautiful song? talent...loads and loads of talent.

makes me wonder too how he came up with said song when he's not really in that place in his life...maybe it was a past experience or from a friend who's in a long distance relationship...or it can also be something as mundane as, yes, wishing he had halo-halo one hot muggy day. whatever or however it came into being, the song is definitely wonderful and special...as special and wonderful as the man who wrote it. :)

and i wish i could come up with words more worthy of the song instead of another writing excuse.

sorry.
you cool me down
in times of burning heat
but now that you're far away
i'm trapped in this world of raging fire
wish that you were here.

Sunday, April 23, 2017

woke up disoriented
i look for you
then i remember
you are thousands of miles away
wish that you were here.

Monday, April 17, 2017

3am, i'm wide awake
thinking of you
wish that you were here.

Saturday, April 15, 2017

i see you
across the street 
waiting 
waiting for something 
waiting for someone else
wish that you were here.

Sunday, April 2, 2017

"If you were here right now
I would hold you tight
And I'd wish this night would last forevermore.

...

It doesn't matter near or far
I just wanna be right there where you are"


if i were not on vacation in the Philippines right now, surrounded by family and friends, i would be bawling like a child. so much longing and missing.  
it does remind me of one person though... i won't say who but his initials are jb. mwahaha! 

i want to write more about this song, but right now i'm just too happy....i think i need to be sad and homesick or heartbroken for this. hahaha

old and new

i was reading through my old posts and found my "baul" post of Ned way back 2008.

thinking back to those days, i remember how hard it was for me to come see them again after joeyb left. i was heartbroken, and i didn't want a blatant reminder of his absence. where i used to see his ever present smile, i would see a stranger. where i used to hear his ever so soft and calming voice, i would  hear an unfamiliar voice.

and to top it all off, this new guy wrote their comeback song as well! the nerve!

but i loved SideA then, as much as i still do now, and for certain, as much as i will tomorrow. so i gave this new guy a chance, listened to the new song, and the old 2008 post below was the result.

and now, that once new guy has become my new favorite person in the band. funny how that turned out, huh?

so as i was watching their show last friday (3/31), i was slowly coming to the realization that i'm warming up to the new new guy...that i didn't mind so much that the songs i have loved over the years, especially the ever sacred Forevermore sound a tad different.

who knows... maybe 9 years from now, i will write something like this about Yubs? :)

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SATURDAY, APRIL 26, 2008


die just a little

"i need to die just a little, and cry some more. try to remember how it was before. let me die just a little. i'll be fine.. as soon as i can get you off my mind."

as i listen to these words from SideA's new song "Die Just A Little' composed by the new guy Ned Esguerra, i can't help but think how ironic it is that a song composed by Joey Benin's replacement would inadvertently remind me of joeyb himself.

i was talking to an old friend of mine recently.. and she said that she was surprised a lot of people still know of and like SideA even though they are not so famous now as they were before. and then we reminisced about the times we were still in college, and how we'd follow them around.. in deja vu, news bar cafe, kampo, strumms, etc.. we even had a campus tour with them (we really did go see them at several schools.. haha!). i've often wondered how we could have afforded those gigs with our meager allowances. hmm.. maybe that's why we were so skinny back then. food or sidea? who wouldn't choose the latter, right? hehe.

this week, i met two people who are at the height of their SideA addiction. as i chatted with them (emails, ym, multiply), i was once again reminded of how obsessed i was (and still am i guess) with this group. talking about SideA with no holds barred and especially to people who shares the same obsession just takes me to a natural high. it's like i can say anything i want to say about SideA.. and they won't think i'm crazy.. at least i thought they didn't. hehehe. and it's really nice to hear (or see) them talking about SideA with that same amount of passion. 

it ain't much of a mystery really.. SideA IS great music, brilliant artists, and good people... always been, always will. so long as they keep that, there will always be people as obsessed as my friends and i were back then.. as addicted as tintin and aileen are now.. and as passionate as future versions of us will be.

joeyb, kelly, ernie, joeyg, naldy, leevon, and yes, maybe someday ned too (and the ever helpful dennis, of course) -- never have i loved a group of guys this unconditionally before, and i don't think i ever will again. but now, i think it's time for me to step aside and let others do the obsessing from here on. 

and so i'll die just a little, and i'll cry some more.. remembering how it was before. but even though, they will no longer be as constant on my mind as they were back then.. they will forever and always be in my heart.