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the phoenix lament

And he knew, without knowing how he knew it, that the phoenix had gone, had left Hogwarts for good, just as Dumbledore had left the school, had left the world... had left Harry.
-from The Phoenix Lament, Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince

12 years after I have first read it and re-reading this chapter still makes me cry buckets.

I could hold on for a hundred years
When all else is gone
I would still be here
In a memory of things yet unseen
I'd remember all that we've never been
And I cannot wait to see
What life has in store for me

In another lifetime
It would be forever
In another world
Where you and I
Could be together
In another set of chances
I'd take the ones I've missed
And make you mine
If only for a time
My life would matter
In another life

And I'd stay as strong and I'd stay as true
And you'd have forever now to think it through
Coz I do believe what wasn't meant to be
Wasn't meant for now and
Someday you'll see
In a place and time we never knew
I'll be standing there waiting for you

You would be mine
But until that time is now
I'd be holding on somehow

But until that time
I'll be holding onto forever
Until another life


- In another lifetime by Gary Valenciano

side a, i wish that you were here.

Wish That You Were Here

by Side A

It took a while for me to write this. I kept putting it off, finding excuse after excuse not to write. It wasn't because I didn't like the song, I did...even from the start, I did. But the truth is, I just wasn't in love with it. Yet.

So I listened to the song over and over... watched the music video more times than I would care to admit. Pretty soon I started to notice random little things like..... Ned wears his wedding ring on his pinkie while Leevon on his ring finger and that I had the same color chucks years ago as Naldy's. And more personal stuff like...... Yubs was starting to grow on me, and that it really is unfair how Ernie still seems to look as young as he did 20 years ago sans the mustache.

And then a funny thing happened, I started to miss random little things like...... halo-halo and pansit and fish balls and ramen and milk tea and....well ok, not so random, they're all food. :P  And then my mind started to wander down memory lane and I started to miss more personal stuff like.... late nights with SideA, and high school and first love, and college and the bestest friends, and home and family.

And so I realized, this song isn't just about missing someone who is far away; it's about missing anyone or anything far or near.... it's about doing the things that you can while you can.... it's about growing old and cherishing beautiful memories.... it's about missed opportunities and taking things for granted and second chances.... and yes, it's about love and holding on.

It's pretty amazing actually... a story within a story. And quite a testament to Ned's creative genius that he wrote this song one ordinary day when he was at home missing his family while they were at work/in school. 

How a band can turn the mundane into something beautiful and thoughtful and sweet takes more than mere talent. It takes a brilliant mind to come up with the words, a caring heart to make the words sound sincere, and passion, great great passion, to put them all, words and music, together into one beautiful heart-warming tear-jerking song.

No, it wasn't love in an instant for me. But as with great love stories, not all start with love at first sight, some take a closer look and develop over time. And yes, like a great love story, this song is a treasure I will keep in my heart.

i swear these blues games are going to give me heart attack someday. nerve wracking until the very last microsecond!

meanwhile, a couple of blocks down clark street, yadi and jedd managed to sneak in a pickoff to one distracted red. that was the sneakiest awesomest pickoff play ever.

go cards! let's go blues!  TeamSTL with 2 wins tonight!

wishthatyouwerehere - another writing excuse

wish that you were here. when i first attempted to write about this song, i was on vacation back home. it was hard for me to fully immerse myself in a song full of longing and missing someone when i was surrounded by loving family and friends ;). fast forward a couple of weeks and i'm back to my natural habitat -- alone and homesick. 

and yet, i still could not seem to find the right words.

so i thought of an experiment....every time i think of someone or something i miss, i will write down words...yes, words. should be simple, yeah? right.   

(see previous posts for those attempts)

i could manage a few words but it would always sound so cheesy......even when all i was writing about was that it was hot and i wish i had halo-halo. haha!

so how can someone write such sweet and thoughtful words and make them sound so sincere? and put them all together in a beautiful song? talent...loads and loads of talent.

makes me wonder too how he came up with said song when he's not really in that place in his life...maybe it was a past experience or from a friend who's in a long distance relationship...or it can also be something as mundane as, yes, wishing he had halo-halo one hot muggy day. whatever or however it came into being, the song is definitely wonderful and special...as special and wonderful as the man who wrote it. :)

and i wish i could come up with words more worthy of the song instead of another writing excuse.

sorry.

you cool me down
in times of burning heat
but now that you're far away
i'm trapped in this world of raging fire
wish that you were here.