in another world and another lifetime
a place and time we do not know

you and i together
and it will be forever

not a hero

just because it didn't happen to you, doesn't mean it did not happen at all.

be grateful you did not suffer but acknowledge the pain of those who did.

how can you consider somebody, who had thousands of innocent lives imprisoned, tortured, and murdered, a hero?

forgive? if asked, sure. 

but make him a hero? absolutely not. how can anybody think otherwise?

"per aspera, ad astra"

"There is no greater plague to an introvert than the extroverted."

-Roque. Golden Son. Pierce Brown

"Home isn't where you're from, it's where you find light when all grows dark."

-Darrow. Golden Son. Pierce Brown

“A man thinks he can fly, but he is afraid to jump. A poor friend pushes him from behind. A good friend jumps with."

-Ragnar quoting Lorn au Arcos to Darrow. Morning Star. Pierce Brown.

"Break the chains."

"Live for more."

"I could make you happy,

make your dreams come true.

Nothing that I wouldn't do,

go to the ends of the Earth for you,

to make you feel my love."

one

one who took my heart and broke it

one who i thought would help me get it back

one who is every bit the man of my dreams but born too early 

one who seems perfect in every way but born too late

none of them the one.

return of the king

"a day may come when the courage of men fails, when we forsake our friends and break all bonds of fellowship, but it is not this day. an hour of wolves and shattered shields, when the age of men comes crashing down! but it is not this day! this day we fight!"

-aragorn

gimli: never thought I'd die fighting side by side with an Elf. 

legolas: what about side by side with a friend? 

gimli: aye. I could do that.

"come on, mr. frodo. i can't carry it for you, but i can carry you."

-sam

"my friends, you bow to no one."

-aragorn to the hobbits

this scene. still brings tears to my eyes.

because anyone, even the "little" people, can be a hero.

"how do you pick up the threads of an old life? how do you go on, when in your heart you begin to understand there is no going back? there are some things that time cannot mend, some hurts that go too deep, that have taken hold."

-frodo

"i will not say 'do not weep', for not all tears are an evil."

-gandalf

"we set out to save the shire, sam. and it has been saved. but not for me"

-frodo

argh i'm not done crying yet.

return of the king. epic end to an epic tale. just. epic.

2 towers

Frodo: What are we holding on to, Sam?
Sam: That there's some good in the world, Mr. Frodo, and it's worth fighting for.

"My heart... it feels like my chest can barely contain it. Like it's trying to escape because it doesn't belong to me any more. It belongs to you. And if you wanted it, I'd wish for nothing in exchange - no gifts. No goods. No demonstrations of devotion. Nothing but knowing you loved me too. Just your heart, in exchange for mine."

-yvaine, stardust

for now

"i will search through a thousand worlds and 10,000 lifetimes until i find you."

-kai, 47 ronin

yep. this is me giving up on "you". for now.

i be your wings

you be my angel, and i'll be your wings.

when you want to guard your loved ones from evil, 

i will support you.

when you want to do good but keep me hidden, 

i will still be there. silent but present still.

when you choose to love even the people who throw hatred at you,

i will guide the kindness you throw back at them.

when you want to stay humble and take the high road,

i will follow your lead.

when you decide to stand up to the people who wish you harm, 

i will be behind you all the way.

and if everything becomes too much and you want to fly away, 

i will help you soar.

fly far.

fly high.

fly free.

how long will i

"how long will i love you? 

as long as the stars are above you, and longer if i can.

how long will i need you? 

as long as the seasons need to follow their plan.

how long will i want you? 

as long as you want me to, and longer by far."

ligaya v2016

ilang isaw pa ba ang kakainin, o giliw ko?

ilang pokemon pa ba ang huhulihin, o giliw ko?

ilang pak pa ba ang i-ga-ganern-ganern, o giliw ko?

#ligaya2016version

(sometimes i surprise myself...ipa-copyright ko na kaya to...hahaha charot! feelingera lang.)

pangarap lang

"mabuti pa sa lotto, may pag-asang manalo. di tulad sa yo, imposible.
...
kahit mahal kita, wala akong magagawa.
tanggap ko, oh aking sinta, pangarap lang kita."

oh my heart... (from eb fb page)

baseball is a funny game

down 4-0 heading into the 9th and the cardinals win it...walk off in the bottom of that inning. i know this wasn't a big game... but it just reminds me how ridiculous this game can get! that was unbelievable! and maybe this can get them going again. maybe. hopefully. 

i still can't believe they won that game. omg. epic comeback.

"you by the light is the greatest find. in a world full of wrong you're the thing that's right.

i could be all that you're needing if you let me try.

you set it again, my heart's in motion. every word feels like a shooting star."

D-1

Trying to keep it in the down low because you really want something to happen and you don't want it taken away from you....but deep inside you're soooo excited you're bursting to tell someone. argh! the struggle is real.

jb

i'd forgotten how your smile can make me feel like everything's gonna be alright.

i miss that smile.

i don't understand why anybody could ever hate you.

i don't understand why there's so much hate directed towards someone with such a good heart.

i don't understand why because every time i see you, all i ever feel is this love that threatens to overwhelm me.

waino!!!

i feel like i have to write this post...i feel like things are finally turning around for the cardinals, like when this season ends and we look back, tonight...this game is the game we will remember most.

so many things that make me happy in tonight's win.

first, it's against the pirates! it's been frustrating....before tonight, the cardinals have won 1 out of the 6 games they've played against the pirates this season. one! so yeah, it feels pretty good to win another.

second, finally the cards are 5 above 500 and finally the cards are in sole possession of second place in the nl central. if the season were to end today, they'd be playing in the post season via the wildcard. and for the first time, to be quite honest, i feel like we have a real good chance to be in the playoffs. and now that i've said that, i probably jinxed them. *knocks on wood*

third, it's waino with the go-ahead rbi! waino pinch-hitting in the 12th inning! waino! like a kid in a candy store, that's how happy he is right now. that's how happy everyone in the dugout was for him when he hit that double. and that's how happy every cardinals fan is after watching that game. 

see that smile on his face? that's the same smile that's plastered on my face right now.

watch out cubs...the cardinals are coming for you. incidentally, just to make the victory tonight even sweeter, the cubbies lost to the braves. tonight, the best team lost to the worst team in the league! 

am i happy with tonight's game(s)? you bet i am!

cruisin'

Late post....yes, i needed a long weekend to finish this. haha!

“Man cannot discover new oceans unless he has the courage to lose sight of the shore.” ― André Gide

"i did it for you and for me. and because i still believe there's only one thing you can never give up, never compromise on, and that's the real thing you need in love."

idealism may be a bitch that keeps you alone, away from everyone but i'd rather be happy by myself than lonely and miserable with someone.

minsan lang

i love this song. i love this scene. and i love alden. :D

ah pepe and leonor.... 

sa tagal kong tumitingin sa kalangitan

ngayon lang lumabas ang mga bituin

sinasalamin nila ang karikitan 

ng mga mata mong maningning

sa tagal nang tumitibok nitong puso

ngayon ko lamang napansin

may kabog at may kaba na namumuo

sa tuwing ikaw ay napapatingin

sadya bang bumagal ang oras

o tumigil ang aking mundo

ngayon lang na bato balani

lahat ito'y dahil sa 'yo

tumakas na yata ang diwa

sa alapaap ay naggagala

binihag mo ang aking isip

puso ko at kaluluwa

ngayon lang naramdaman ito

sa 'yo lang, walang iba.

- Ngayon Lang (Ilustrado Love theme)

keeping afloat at .500

ok so my cardinals aren't doing so well this season, and people say no team gets better after may 9th... well, there's still lots of baseball left to play and if they are not giving up, neither am i. go cards!

and just a few blocks down the road of this same town... game 6 tonight... let's go blues!

random hugots of the day

"and the colors are golden and bright again. there's a song in my heart, i feel like i belong. it's a better place since you came along."

haaaaay i wish. i wish.

"throw away the chains, let love fly away. till love comes again, i'll be okay."

stay strong, chaechae. keep the faith. believe. and all that crap. :D

"lights will guide you home and ignite your bones. i will try to fix you."

 somebody fix me, please.

"did you see that shooting star tonight? were you dazzled by the same constellation?"

oh my rj, hurry please. come find me before i'm old and wrinkly or 80.....or all three.

1 out of 2

omg. these hockey games are going to give me a heart attack.

welp...at least one stl team beat one chicago team tonight. not bad, although the cards beating the cubbies also would have been so much better.

i love how the cards and the blues support each other. every time the blues score a goal, they show it in busch stadium during a cardinals game. ballpark village is packed with fans cheering for both teams. mike matheny saying, "i guess the blues scored" when he heard cheers in the background during a post game interview. yadi and kolten tweeting their support for the blues. ahhh i love teamSTL!

a little side note...jason heyward getting booed loudly in every at bat...he says that's good because at least he knows stl fans wanted him to stay. i say, don't flatter yourself, j-hey, stl fans are booing you not because you left but because you said something hurtful/against the cardinals team. there is a difference.

roadtrip... final thoughts

alright, so i finished the music video....hurrah!

making it though reminded me how much i really did have fun during my roadtrip... sure, the drive was frustrating and draining sometimes, but the fun and excitement far outweigh the exhaustion.

all in all, i think i was able to do most of the things i planned. the storm put a damper on some things but nothing too serious, and i got through them most importantly...all in one piece.

i've said this before, but after doing this roadtrip, i really am quite proud of myself. :)

will i do it again? ABSOLUTELY!

a collective sigh of relief from all cardinals fans everywhere as they win their first of the season. 1 for 4. welp...could be worse. nice to see smiles in the dugout though. and some history made too...3 pinch hit homers, a first in mlb history! wootwoot!

let's go, guys...now let's win the next 158. hahaha!

also, let's go blues!

roadtrip day 4

home. as the mile marker numbers become lower and lower on i-64w, i catch a glimpse of the arch in the distance and i feel a gentle tug at my heartstrings. feels weird sometimes to realize that this is home...but it is. home.

but let's backtrack a bit to the start of the final day of this roadtrip...

mass at the Cathedral of the Incarnation in Nashville because it's a Sunday, and it's always good to give thanks...especially for keeping me safe on this roadtrip. i had an outfit all planned, a nice dress for church...except at 8:00 in the morning, it was 40 deg F outside! and i didn't bring tights. so i checked my bag for any other clean clothes and.....sweat pants it was. hahaha sorry.

state capitol building, of course.

spent a little time at the centennial park also and took pictures, including their version of the Parthenon.

then off to lunch. i had my heart set on trying this famous nashville hot chicken, Hattie B's. there were two branches. i go to the one closer to where i was at that time....the line was suuuuuper long outside! drove to the other one, maybe about 20 people lining up outside. ok, i thought, i could do this. so i waited and waited for about 30 minutes to get inside and order. got my food after 15 minutes and......it was worth all the wait! love the chicken and the pimiento mac and cheese...the baked beans were so-so.

time-check....12:48pm. it was about 5.5 hours to drive home, and i really wanted to get home early. so i decided to say bye-bye to Nashville and start the journey back home.

sad that the roadtrip ended, but feels good to be back home...to be sleeping in my own bed.

will try to make the mv soon....right now, it feels like it is such a monumental task just to sort through the videos from the "gopro" camera. plus i have to figure out how to break the snapchat stories and rotate parts of them. argh tamaditis once again.

but for now, here are my snappies for the day....

Total distance driven: 373.1

Total time driving: approx 6 hours 

roadtrip day 3

dead tired but just a quick update....

day started great! spent about an hour on the beach after breakfast....walking and taking pictures.

drove to mobile and then cruised along mobile bay and then searched for a seafood place. had crab claws and oysters with fries and hush puppies, all fried. delicious but i would regret eating all this later.

drove to montgomery for my token state capitol building visit. then went in search for some ice cream. 

craving satisfied, i then started on what was supposed to be a 4.5-hour drive to nashville. note to self: never ever take i-65 again. ever. especially on a stomach full of fried stuff. ugh!

after 5.5 hours, i finally checked in to my hotel for the night.

snappies for today....pardon the best actress moment at the end, exhaustion makes me extra crazy. :D

Total distance driven: 582.2 miles

Total time driving: approx 10 hrs

roadtrip day 2

alright, i have decided to just make one mv for the whole trip. soooo day 2 update....

early start, around 7:30 i think....drove to Baton Rouge, took a picture of the capitol building, drove around town a little.

then off to evergreen plantation to try to make the 11:30 tour...made it there with 10 minutes to spare. except the place was closed for the day. lesson learned: check website or call before going. with the pouring rain...and i mean, buckets(!)...no cell signal, and an almost empty gas tank, i tried to find my way to new orleans (for a time with the help of a map....yes, you know, a real map, not the app) and to the nearest gas station.

lunch at about 1:30....tried the fried alligator, liked it, tasted like chicken;) and some pork dish, i can't remember and wasn't really impressed with.

walked around the french quarter and jackson square. tried beignets. went inside st louis cathedral.

drove to my hotel. through a rain storm. again.
ugh! i think i'm following this storm as it makes its way east.

snappy updates today....

Total miles driven: 357.4

Total time driving: approx 7 hours 

goodnight. from a hotel by the beach. in the gulf coast. :)

roadtrip day 1

first stop: Central BBQ in downtown Memphis for some BBQ

walked to Elvis's statue on Beale st. then walked back to central bbq where i parked my car

Graceland Mansion tour...interesting.

Mississippi State capitol building, Jackson, MS

went to the wrong hotel

went to the right one but credit card machine was broken

returned to the first hotel

checked in around 9:40pm

I was going to compile today's highlights in a mini-mv but too exhausted to do it... tomorrow maybe. in the meantime, these were my snapchat updates today...

nasty weather for driving...had to drive really slow a few times because i could hardly see where i was going...had to turn on hazard lights those times too. i hate driving in the rain..especially in a storm!

Total miles driven: 520.2

Total time driving: approx 9 hours

happy 24th....err 30th.... errr..happy birthday! ;)

happy birthday to me! :)

lunch with work peeps...

then later at the foodbank.... and challenge #2 completed.

incidentally, fox2 news was there to do some coverage (find me at around the 1:00 and 1:12 mark)...

http://fox2now.com/2016/03/30/keeping-food-bank-shelves-stocked-when-food-stamp-bill-takes-effect/

all in all, it was a pretty good day.

tomorrow, my road trip begins.....so excited!

unwritten

"Feel the rain on your skin

No one else can feel it for you

Only you can let it in

No one else, no one else

Can speak the words on your lips

Drench yourself in words unspoken

Live your life with arms wide open

Today is where your book begins

The rest is still unwritten."

random hugot

"ilang isaw pa ba ang kakainin?"

nasan ka na? aasa pa ba akong darating ka?

"kung kaagaw ko ang lahat, may pag-asa bang makilala ka?"

kasalanan mo, masyado kang madaling mahalin. 

"sa isip at panaginip, bawat pagpihit ng tadhana, hinahanap hanap kita"

kahit sa pangarap lang, sapat na, masaya na ako.

random thoughts

what's the point of wonder woman's invisible plane? you can still see her inside... she ends up kinda looking weird flying while sitting down. :D

rehab

i've just come to the realization 

that seeing you smile and laugh 

has become one of my favorite things.

your happiness is like a drug

that i want more and more of

each and every single day.

just a speck of dust

How many times did I pray you'd find me

How many wishes on a star

Gazing off into the dark dreaming I'd see your face
Safe at home unafraid, captured in your embrace.

Maybe now I'm ready to be found. 

Who are we?

Just a speck of dust within the galaxy?

Some nights, I stay up while the whole world's sleeping

Could you be someone I've known all along?

Maybe we passed on a crowded street 

never knowing you were where I belong.

Will I ever breathe the air that you do? 

Love begins with one hello.

Sometimes when you and I collide 

I fall into an ocean of you;

Pull me out in time, don't let me drown.

Our dreams, and they are made out of real things

like a shoe-box of photographs with sepia-toned loving.

Aren't you something to admire, 'cause your shine is something like a mirror
And I can't help but notice, you reflect in this heart of mine
If you ever feel alone and the glare makes me hard to find
Just know that I'm always parallel on the other side.

Hoku. Alden Richards. Adam Levine. Side A. Side A. Randy Crawford. Bic Runga. Jack Johnson. Justin Timberlake. 

You first believed. Wish I may. Lost stars. One wish. Will I ever. One hello. Sway. Better together. Mirrors. 

good mornings

i don't even care anymore;
all i know is you make me happy
and i love you.

and if every morning,
yours is the face i see first
then it will be the happiest of mornings
for the rest of my life.

(c) aldenrichards02

story of my life

"I drew him in my world;
I write him in my lines,
I want to be his girl,
he was never meant as mine."
- Lang Leav

happy puso day

as the day is ending, i reflect upon how my day went.

woke up to valentine greetings on viber from close friends... i jokingly reply "ano yun? di kami magkilala ni valentine's day." and as i gaze outside my window, mesmerized a little by the falling snow, i tell them i have a date with this guy...

and so i did. sortof. hello, atom! legends of tomorrow, anyone?

as i already went to church yesterday, i didn't have to go outside to brave the cold. i had the whole day to do nothing... and in my opinion, the do-nothing day is one of the best kinds of days.

made soup for lunch...and while i ate it, i scoured twitter for alden&maine updates because let's face it, my lovelife nowadays is me living vicariously through these two.

practiced playing the ukulele a bit.

did two loads of laundry.

finished two fleece blankets.

chatted some more with my friends who were now awake on the other side of the world. 

and now, as i'm listening to forevermore playing in the background while i'm writing this post, i decide that my day wasn't that bad at all.

valentine's day spent with friends albeit virtually, kilig by proxy lovelife, some "me" time, and some productive blanket making for kids... for a day meant for LOVE (of any kind)... not bad, not bad at all. it's all a matter of perspective.

besides, how can you not just smile while that face is in front of you?! ;)

random thoughts

in a relationship, would you rather be the one who loves more or the one who is loved more?

i have been both...not at the same time, of course. looking back now, even though i was hurt a lot more, i was also more happy when i loved more. 

deneb

Bewildered...I am at a loss for words.

I know it seems stupid, but somehow it feels so real.

Everyday I think to myself that I couldn't possibly feel more...care more...

and yet each and every day, I find myself falling deeper and deeper.

I get lost in your eyes...mesmerized by your smile...captivated by your voice.

I forget to breathe as I find myself drowning in your presence.

You are the moon, always there yet always out of my reach.

You are the sun, blinding yet I can't seem to look away.

panaginip lang pala

i dreamed a dream...

sidea was helping alden play the guitar...

alden, performs with sidea, playing the guitar and singing "i believe in dreams"...

it was a happy dream.

minsan...

minsan nakakalimutan kong hindi ako sya.

minsan nakakalimutan ko na kapag nakatingin ka ng sobrang tagos sa kaluluwa na pagmamahal ay hindi ako ang nakikita mo.

minsan nakakalimutan ko na hindi ang mga kamay ko ang hinahawakan mo na parang ayaw mo ng bitawan.

minsan nakakalimutan ko na hindi ako ang niyayakap mo ng sobrang higpit na para bang natatakot ka na mawala ako sa piling mo.

minsan nakakalimutan ko na hindi ako ang kinakantahan mo na tipong buong puso mo ay binubuhos mo na sa kanta.

minsan nakakalimutan ko na hindi para sa akin ang matatamis mong mga ngiti at kislap ng iyong mga mata...na ang pag-aalaga mo at paglalambing ay nakalaan lamang para sa kanya. 

minsan nakakalimutan ko na hindi ako ang minamahal mo.

minsan pwede ba kitang mahiram sa panaginip ko? para dun, ako naman ang mahal mo.